quam serena

2010-02-28T22:24:00.001+08:00

Just screw this shit

Pythagoras Switch

2010-02-15T21:27:00.004+08:00

The school's CNY celebration was hilarious. Those malay mats should have just left it to the Chinese dancers which at the same time present a more relevant content.

I've been spending my time on guitar and school instead of blogging so the incomplete post I promised is still in my draft. Instead, I wanna share this series of innovative dominoes by the Japanese. Its really worth your ~30 minutes.

http://www.youtube.com/view_play_list?p=42D17FFCA266B2EF
The whole playlist

Here are some of the few good ones as a preview.

Lol, they way they used the magnet in the last one is freaking cool luh.. Anyways, they're saying Pythagoras Switch; with a Japanese accent. The class should do this for the challenge.

2010-01-28T21:07:00.005+08:00

Pertaining to the previous post, I guess it's neither. I chose China instead 'cause of a competition that will be held on the departure date of the other two destination. I have about a dozen draft of events and thoughts which I have yet to complete, which explains why I've not been posting any much. Never mind that.

School is really being a bitch. Its an epitome of Singapore's kiasu reputation. They should teach with a system that maximize learning so that the students will value having a flexible mind than sheer hardwork. Anderson has done this and they're doing way better than us. They end classes at 1:30 while those who needs the attention stay back longer instead of holding back the whole batch.

Term test was held in week 3. Yea, I use that fact as a material to start a conversation with friends outside school; more of a joke actually.

Then there are those unnecessary stress like CCA, missing library books and competitions. The guilt that lingers after a CCA session really can be depressing when it turns out short due to the lack of preparation of the uncommitted ex-co members.

What I have predicted in my previous blog during sec 2 all came true. Teachers keep on reiterating the importance of critical thinking which I ranted on ever since I started criticising the school.
Ditto to what Mrs Tan said "If your marks are dependent on the amount of memorisation you did, then anybody can take Pure Bio." It was funny how she lectured my bio group on critical thinking because they can't actually connect what we learnt in physics with the concepts that work the lenses in our eye. Well to exacerbate that situation, she explained it the way I did which then harvested the same result (them being clueless). Unsatisfied with her answer, they insisted in finding an optician. It's quite laughable lah; the fact that they think the only way of getting the best outcome is by spending the most time and effort in it.
The thing is that they should concentrate in trying to understand the concept involve instead of physically walking around asking experts to provide an idiot-proof overview of the topic.
Foreseeing this problem our school has, I made a prediction that the batch will suck in physics which apparently does. I don't fault much on the students though since it's the teacher's job to impart this skill to the students. So just for the record, when I criticize the school, I'm criticizing how learning takes place instead of the majority that makes up the school.

On the other hand, my brain is getting lazier to think for some reason. The cause: environment, attitude or pressure? I'm not sure but instead of trying to find new ways of doing things, I just try to find patterns that occur before and utilise it which most if not everybody does lah. Maybe it's the demands of the topics we are currently learning (although I doubt so). There isn't much time to stop and analyse the topic because of the rate we're going.

With all this mess I'm in (including the disappointing MT Olvl result) it has been a horrible way to start the year. What I really need now will be to detach myself from this platitudinous routine and cast myself away to Marina Bay with my guitar before looking back at my life.

Hmm I think I lost some of the points I wanted to address in this post but nvm. I realised that when I'm in school or with anybody that I usually hang out with, I take on traits of an ENTP. So maybe in the next post I'll single out distinct personalities that I take as an ENTP and INTP.

Finally, I changed that previous background song for my blog. K fine, it was quite tasteless.

2010-01-20T23:01:00.001+08:00

taiwan or korea?

2009-12-27T19:54:00.002+08:00

I should compile anything that put my thoughts into words. It really eases my mind when my thoughts are expressed in well constructed article or videos. Here's one of them

2009-12-24T02:39:00.002+08:00

Okay, this is something that is just too funny for me to let it pass.

So he mentioned the username uglyrat5478 for posting that comment and since that day, those who watch RWJ's video leave a comment in his page thrice a day! Just too damn epic...
Cmon, take a look uglyrat5478

Well, as for the guy who posted all those farting videos, there is not a single comment for him. What's happening man... lol.

fartjason

Brain story

2009-12-21T04:44:00.003+08:00

This is an episode of a series of really cool documentaries on our brain. Highlights from it are prodding the brain with electrical pulses while the patient was awake, doing experiments which shows that religious experiences you get from praying and rituals are just product from our brain activities, and it was recreated, and some other cools facts on common diseases that attack the organ.

Here are the links.
Part 1
Part 2
Part 3
Part 4
Part 5
Part 6

2009-12-15T21:01:00.004+08:00

Damn, this is a nice rendition of the song I previously posted. Instrumental. There're like a lot of musics with nice melodies but crappy lyrics and sometimes its much better to just listen to the melody...

2009-12-12T03:49:00.003+08:00

Hm, seems like I'm hooked to this song. It appeared into my "recommend" box randomly. Cool huh? Anyways the sons starts at 2:40. It's cool how her voice changes when she sings; and its live.
Just read the news paper and there was this article on a student who died after chewing a gum which he accidentally dipped into an explosive powder; mistaking it for citric acid. Damn fail lah, haha.

Myers Briggs Personality Test

2009-12-02T22:26:00.006+08:00

So I took the Myers Briggs Personality Test and here's the result. It describes everything about me. So yea, do read

The Thinker

As an INTP, your primary mode of living is focused internally, where you deal with things rationally and logically. Your secondary mode is external, where you take things in primarily via your intuition.

INTPs live in the world of theoretical possibilities. They see everything in terms of how it could be improved, or what it could be turned into. They live primarily inside their own minds, having the ability to analyze difficult problems, identify patterns, and come up with logical explanations. They seek clarity in everything, and are therefore driven to build knowledge. They are the "absent-minded professors", who highly value intelligence and the ability to apply logic to theories to find solutions. They typically are so strongly driven to turn problems into logical explanations, that they live much of their lives within their own heads, and may not place as much importance or value on the external world. Their natural drive to turn theories into concrete understanding may turn into a feeling of personal responsibility to solve theoretical problems, and help society move towards a higher understanding.

INTPs value knowledge above all else. Their minds are constantly working to generate new theories, or to prove or disprove existing theories. They approach problems and theories with enthusiasm and skepticism, ignoring existing rules and opinions and defining their own approach to the resolution. They seek patterns and logical explanations for anything that interests them. They're usually extremely bright, and able to be objectively critical in their analysis. They love new ideas, and become very excited over abstractions and theories. They love to discuss these concepts with others. They may seem "dreamy" and distant to others, because they spend a lot of time inside their minds musing over theories. They hate to work on routine things - they would much prefer to build complex theoretical solutions, and leave the implementation of the system to others. They are intensely interested in theory, and will put forth tremendous amounts of time and energy into finding a solution to a problem with has piqued their interest.

INTPs do not like to lead or control people. They're very tolerant and flexible in most situations, unless one of their firmly held beliefs has been violated or challenged, in which case they may take a very rigid stance. The INTP is likely to be very shy when it comes to meeting new people. On the other hand, the INTP is very self-confident and gregarious around people they know well, or when discussing theories which they fully understand.

The INTP has no understanding or value for decisions made on the basis of personal subjectivity or feelings. They strive constantly to achieve logical conclusions to problems, and don't understand the importance or relevance of applying subjective emotional considerations to decisions. For this reason, INTPs are usually not in-tune with how people are feeling, and are not naturally well-equiped to meet the emotional needs of others.

The INTP may have a problem with self-aggrandizement and social rebellion, which will interfere with their creative potential. Since their Feeling side is their least developed trait, the INTP may have difficulty giving the warmth and support that is sometimes necessary in intimate relationships. If the INTP doesn't realize the value of attending to other people's feelings, he or she may become overly critical and sarcastic with others. If the INTP is not able to find a place for themself which supports the use of their strongest abilities, they may become generally negative and cynical. If the INTP has not developed their Sensing side sufficiently, they may become unaware of their environment, and exhibit weakness in performing maintenance-type tasks, such as bill-paying and dressing appropriately.

For the INTP, it is extremely important that ideas and facts are expressed correctly and succinctly. They are likely to express themselves in what they believe to be absolute truths. Sometimes, their well thought-out understanding of an idea is not easily understandable by others, but the INTP is not naturally likely to tailor the truth so as to explain it in an understandable way to others. The INTP may be prone to abandoning a project once they have figured it out, moving on to the next thing. It's important that the INTP place importance on expressing their developed theories in understandable ways. In the end, an amazing discovery means nothing if you are the only person who understands it.

The INTP is usually very independent, unconventional, and original. They are not likely to place much value on traditional goals such as popularity and security. They usually have complex characters, and may tend to be restless and temperamental. They are strongly ingenious, and have unconventional thought patterns which allows them to analyze ideas in new ways. Consequently, a lot of scientific breakthroughs in the world have been made by the INTP.

The INTP is at his best when he can work on his theories independently. When given an environment which supports his creative genius and possible eccentricity, the INTP can accomplish truly remarkable things. These are the pioneers of new thoughts in our society.

It's accurate to its very last sentence...

"When given an environment which supports his creative genius and possible eccentricity, the INTP can accomplish truly remarkable things."

This is why I've been stressing on my environment so much. Hope you guys have a clearer picture of why I do the stuff I do and why I'm actually screwed. Oh wait, I'm not implying that I'm a genius cuz I'm not.

This is the second part to the assessment where it states more about how those with the same personality as I do live their life and so on.

What does Success mean to an INTP?

People with the INTP personality type are global thinkers. They see everything as one giant Entity that is connected, and seek knowledge about that Entity. They constantly seek the Truth, and have ultimate respect for the Truth. It is not easy for the INTP to reach a conclusion about the Truth. Their auxiliary function of Extraverted Intuition allows them to absorb the many complexities in our world, and they are driven to consider each of these complexities before reaching a conclusion. Once they have reached a conclusion, or discovered a Truth, they are *very* particular about the way that Truth is expressed and understood. They want to know that the principles of their understanding have been understood correctly, and demand absolute precision and correctness from others when describing these principles. They also apply these standards to themselves when communicating their knowledge. If they take the time to develop their communication so that it meets their own approval, they can be extremely good educational writers.

In addition to their immense respect for metaphysical principles, facts, and Truths, the INTP highly respects logic and the way that the mind works logically when seeking to master some subject or situation. They get great pleasure from engaging in logical acts that require quick, spatial reasoning, such as mind games, or time-based IQ tests. The INTP shines in this realm. Introverted Thinking is an "action-based" kind of logic. In the case of the INTP (as opposed to ISTP), the action may or may not occur in a physical place outside of the INTP's mind, but it is experienced with lightning speed in the current moment, based on current objects, using subjectively understood "actions" of reason.

The INTP is happiest in situations in which they can use logic regularly in an effort to uncover Truths about the Entity. Their ability to be effective in these efforts, as well as their ability to deal with people and feel comfortable with their place in the world, will be in large part dependent on the development of Extraverted Intuition. Although they have more simple needs from interpersonal relationships than most other types have, it's very important that they keep up their extraverted relationships, rather than going it alone. INTPs who isolate themselves rarely feel happy or successful. The INTP's feeling of success depends upon their opportunities to exercise their active mind, their opportunities to seek and find Truth, and the condition of their relationships and extraverted life.

Allowing Your INTP Strengths to Flourish

As an INTP, you have gifts that are specific to your personality type that aren't natural strengths for other types. By recognizing your special gifts and encouraging their growth and development, you will more readily see your place in the world, and be more content with your role.

Nearly all INTPs will recognize the following characteristics in themselves. They should embrace and nourish these strengths:

* They have a natural ability to focus and get "into the zone" when working on a problem. They can absorb their minds completely with an issue, and work it through with amazing speed and accuracy. This ability makes them outstanding trouble-shooters. Since their logical abilities are dependent on their experiences, their abilities will increase with time. INTPs with experience are often seen as the "gurus" of their professions.
* Their respect for precision in communication lends them the ability to accurately convey their ideas and discoveries in full.
* They are usually quite intelligent and can grasp difficult concepts.
* They are often jovial and good-natured, with a good sense of humor.
* They are not overly demanding in personal relationships, and have simple daily needs. They are often easy and enjoyable to live with.

INTPs who have developed their Extraverted Intuition to the extent that they regularly take in information in an objective fashion, rather than strictly to feed Introverted Thinking, will enjoy these very special gifts:

* They may be exceptionally intelligent, and make ground-breaking discoveries.
* With a well-developed understanding of their environment and the ability to act very quickly, they may good athletes.
* They're typically able to communicate their ideas more concisely than the average INTP without sacrificing accuracy.
* They understand the benefits of close relationships, and understand how to support and enhance these relationships.
* They see the value of principles that are not strictly logical
* They have attractive and compelling personalities, and are well-liked and accepted by most people.

Potential Problem Areas

With any gift of strength, there is an associated weakness. Without "bad", there would be no "good". Without "difficult", there would be no "easy". We value our strengths, but we often curse and ignore our weaknesses. To grow as a person and get what we want out of life, we must not only capitalize upon our strengths, but also face our weaknesses and deal with them. That means taking a hard look at our personality type's potential problem areas.

Most of the weaker characteristics that are found in INTPs are due to their dominant function of Introverted Thinking overtaking the personality to the point that all of the other functions exist merely to serve the purposes of Introverted Thinking. In such cases, an INTP may show some or all of the following weaknesses in varying degrees:

* The INTP gets "stuck in a rut" and only does those things that are known and comfortable to the INTP.
* The INTP resists and rejects anything that doesn't support their own experiential understanding of the world. If they perceive that something is not logical, they reject it as unimportant.
* They reject people who think or live differently than themselves.
* They may be extremely caustic and insulting to others.
* They may become isolated from society.
* They may become overly paranoid about social organizations and institutions trying to control them.
* They may unknowingly or uncaringly hurt people's feelings.
* They may be completely unaware of how to express their inner world to others in a meaningful way.
* They may be completely unaware of the type of communication that is often desireable and (to some degree) expected in an intimate relationship. If they are aware of the kinds of things that are appropriate to say and do to foster emotional bonding, they may be unable to appreciate the value of such actions. They may feel too vulnerable to express themselves in this fashion, and so reject the entire idea.
* If pushed beyond their comfort level to form commitments or emotional bonds, they may reject a relationship entirely.
* Under stress, they may show intense emotions that seem disproportionate to the situation.
* They may not recognize basic social principles, such as appropriate dress and general behavior.

Explanation of Problems

Nearly all of the problematic characteristics described above can be attributed in various degrees to the common INTP problem of only taking in information that relates to or supports their own life experience. The INTP is driven to work with and understand his or her world by applying logic (an immediate, spatial, "fuzzy" logic) to the current situation. Although they generally seek to uncover truths, they don't always have a goal in mind to achieve from the logical process. The act or process of using logic is rewarding to the INTP. In their zeal for the satisfaction that comes from mastering a problem or situation, INTPs often selectively choose to put themselves in situations in which they have the opportunity to exercise these skills. That's certainly not a problem. Most personality types choose to do the things that they're best at most often. Such is the nature of capitalizing upon our strengths. The problem rears its ugly head when the goal of the INTP becomes to achieve their personal satisfaction at all costs.

It is healthy to choose your paths and goals in life so that they coincide with what you find rewarding, and what you're really good at. However, it sometimes happens that we take this approach a bit too far and sacrifice an accurate and objective understanding of the world for a more narrow vision that is easier and comfortable for us to deal with. The INTP affects this problem when they stop taking in information in a truly objective sense, and instead only take in information that can be worked through logically.

The dominant function of the INTP is Introverted Thinking. This function is supported closely and importantly by the auxiliary function of Extraverted Intuition. Extraverted Intuition perceives the world and sends information into the psyche, where it is processed by Introverted Thinking. An INTP who uses their Extraverted Intuition function in a diminished way is one who perceives information for the sole purpose of feeding Introverted Thinking, rather than taking everything in objectively. They are less concerned with understanding something for the sake of understanding than they are with feeding a piece of data into their Thinking function. Information that is not logical is dismissed as unimportant. They may reject information that is not consistent with their logical view of themselves, or with their understanding of a situation. Well-developed Extraverted Intuition perceives situations with depth and global understanding. It recognizes possibilities. Introverted Thinking makes conclusions. If an INTP's psyche is serving the purposes of Introverted Thinking above all else, then logical conclusions become more important than possibilities. In such cases, the INTP picks and chooses information from Extraverted Intuition that is interesting to them from the perspective of reaching logical conclusions. This keeps the INTP focused on reaching logical conclusions, but it prevents them from taking in any information that doesn't work well with their logical functioning. This includes things like love, emotions, social expectations, etc. These things are very important to many people in the world, and cannot be discarded from consideration if one hopes to really understand other people and the society that we live in. When the INTP dismisses the importance of data that can't be handled by their Thinking function, they are dismissing the importance of ideas that are central to half of the personality types' way of life (approximately half of the human population uses Feeling primarily for decision making). An INTP who wants to understand people and wants to recognize value in both logical and nonlogical ideas will strive to take in as much information as possible about the world for the purposes of improving their understanding,

The INTP who suffers from diminished use of Extraverted Intuition is likely to be very cutting and derisive towards people who express disagreement with the INTP. Without a sufficiently diverse perception of the Extraverted world, the INTP is unlikely to understand the principles of human interaction, and is unlikely to recognize the tremendous value of getting along with others and having good relationships.

For example, an INTP that I know (Bob) and his wife recently adopted a 7 year old girl (Kelly). The family lives in a foreign country and make it back to the U.S. for Christmas most years. Last year, Bob's relatives from the U.S. spoiled Kelly with lots of Christmas gifts to let her know that she was welcome and valued in their family. When Bob and his family left the country after Christmas, they did not bring any of Kelly's Christmas gifts with them. Bob's relatives were all extremely hurt and upset by this fact. When they confronted Bob about this, he claimed that they were wrong. He said that he had done the packing himself and was sure that nothing had been left behind. Bob's family has a large stack of clothes and toys that were meant for Kelly, but Bob insists to this day that they are wrong. He is not seeing the situation objectively with Extraverted Intuition. Rather, he dismisses the evidence because it doesn't support his own vision of himself or of that particular situation.

The INTP's inferior (fourth) function is Extraverted Feeling. This means that the INTP is not naturally in tune with how other people are feeling, or with social expectations. In fact, the INTP is likely to reject the importance of social rituals, rules, and expectations. This is a natural weak point for the INTP, which no doubt causes strife to the INTP and their love partner. This weakness can be overcome by developing their Extraverted Intuition to the point that they can perceive Feeling type expectations in the external world. They don't have to use Extraverted Feeling to understand how to act in situations. They can perceive the expected behavior from their Extraverted Intuition function. However, if they are restricting their incoming data to only those things that support their existing way of life, then they are not learning from Extraverted Intuition at all. They are not growing their understanding of social and intimate behaviors - rather, they are reducing the importance of this type of understanding to their own life. In these situations, INTPs shy away from very close personal relationships, and feel more vulnerable and less sure of themselves in situations that involve expressing their emotions. In extreme cases, they reject social interaction entirely. They tend to dislike everyone, and interact with the world with the primary purpose of getting rid of the offending person. Most INTPs will have bad days during which they don't much feel like dealing with people. The problem occurs when every day becomes a bad day.

Solutions

To grow as an individual, the INTP needs to focus on taking in as much information as possible through Extraverted Intuition. He or she needs to allow themself to get into situations that they aren't necessarily comfortable with, or that are different from the situations that they would normally choose in life. The INTP learns from experience, so the best way for the INTP to grow as a person is to open him or herself to new experiences. Be aware of the tendency to want to run out and do something "new" that is actually just a different opportunity to exercise a known skill. Your task, as a person interested in personal growth, is to understand the world in a truly objective fashion, and how you fit into the world, rather than how the world fits into your life.

The INTP should also pay close attention to their motivations when perceiving new information. Are they perceiving with an open mind or with an agenda? Are they seeking to truly understand something, or are they more concerned with turning the information into a logical conclusion? Seek first to understand, then to judge.

Living Happily in our World as an INTP

The problems that INTPs have with regards to fitting into our world are not usually related to platonic friendships. Usually, the INTP has trouble finding and maintaining a love relationship. The INTP usually has relatively simple needs and expectations from their mates, and they're surprised and confused to find that their mates have more complex demands. They don't understand their mate's needs, and may feel inadequate to meeting them. They get very uncomfortable with a situation as they perceive that they are expected to do something that it unknown to them. They back away from the relationship. They generally mask their fear and discomfort by reducing the importance of the relationship to themselves and others, or by putting the failure off onto the ridiculous expectations of their ex-mate. Outside of a relationship, they feel more unloved and unappreciated, but are afraid to commit to a relationship because they fear rejection and hurt.

Most INTPs experience relationship difficulties at some point in their lives. The INTP with a well-developed Extraverted Intuition will find relationships more satisfying and easier to deal with. Accordingly, we offer some general suggestions for dealing with relationships, as well as some advice that will help the INTP develop their Extraverted Intuition.

Specific suggestions:

* Figure out how you feel about the other person. Do not falsely express love, or lead someone on with your ambivalence.
* Don't expect yourself to be a master at the "touchy-feely" game. Be yourself, but remember that there is a basic assumption of human decency that must be adhered to in relationships. If you're not sure what that means, take special care to observe how people in "good" committed relationships behave towards each other, so that you can determine where the lines are drawn.
* Pair yourself with an Extraverted Thinker (ESTJ or ENTJ) who is less likely to assume that the lack of feedback is the same thing as negative feedback.
* Realize and accept that for you a satisfying relationship will start with the head, and move on towards the heart.
* Expanding your world and experiences will expand your understanding of human expectations. Try to figure out the personality type of people that you know and encounter in your life.
* Take care to notice what people look like in different social situations. Notice their hair, makeup (or lack thereof), the condition of their clothes, their shoes, their facial expressions. Don't compare others to your own appearance, simply take notice of it.
* When having a conversation with a friend or relative, spend at least half of the time talking about them. Concentrate on really understanding where the person is coming from with their concerns. Ask questions.
* Think of the people who are closest to you. Remember that they have their own lives going on. Try to visualize what that person is doing, and imagine what kinds of things that person is thinking about. Don't pass judgement, just think about it.

Ten Rules to Live By to Achieve INTP Success

1. Feed Your Strengths! Realize your gift at mastering logical problems and situations, and give yourself plenty of opportunities to exercise your abilities. Much of your sense of well-being will come from these experiences.
2. Face Your Weaknesses! We all have weaknesses. Recognizing your weaknesses for what they are (without beating yourself up) will give you the power to change your life for the better.
3. Talk About Your Thoughts. Discussing your ideas and perceptions with others will help you to develop your Extraverted INtuition, and thus your understanding of the world. How well you use your auxiliary function is very important to your overall health and happiness.
4. Listen to Everything Try not to dismiss anything immediately. Let it soak in, and then apply judgement. Try not to dismiss things that are alogical - they are not illogical.
5. Be Aware of Others Understand that everyone has their own lives and their own perspectives. Everyone has something to offer. Try to identify people's personality type.
6. Recognize Social Principles. Realize that our society functions around some basic social principles, and that our society would fail unless those principles are recognized and upheld. In a democracy, people vote. At a red stoplight, people stop. If people stopped voting because it wasn't important them, who would be in power? If people stopped stopping at red stop lights because it didn't fit into their plans, how could we drive safely? Your priorities and plans are important, but you must recognize that the external world's agenda is also important. Don't dismiss the importance of principles that don't affect your life directly.
7. Get Out of Your Comfort Zone Understand that the only way to grow is to get outside of your comfort zone. If you're uncomfortable with an idea or situation because you're not sure how to act, that's good! That's an opportunity for growth.
8. Identify and Express Your Feelings You may have a hard time understanding how you feel about someone. It's important that you do figure this out. Don't lead someone on with your ambivalence. If you determine that you value the person, tell them so every time you think of it. This is the best way to make them feel secure in your affections, and so to promote a long-lasting relationship.
9. Be Accountable for Yourself Remember that no one has more control over your life than you have. Don't be a victim.
10. Assume the Best. Don't distress yourself with fear and dark expectations. Remember that a positive attitude often creates positive situations.

I have so many things to talk about here but I'll continue in my next post.

2009-12-02T15:19:00.012+08:00

I'm just a kid who's four,
each day i grow some more,
I like exploring, I'm caillou.

so many things to do, each day there's something new,
i'll share them with you im caillou

my world is turning,
changing each day!
with mommy and daddy
I'm finding my way

growing up is not so tough
'cept when i've had enough
but there's lots of fun stuff,
i'm caillou
caillou
caillou,
I'm caillou.

That's me!

Do not dwell in the past, do not dream of the future, concentrate the mind on the present moment.

2009-11-28T20:03:00.002+08:00

Alright, so I was reading my math textbook today in the library on a stretch of study table which the rest of the public occupy when the pic on Erwin's blog popped up in my head - not his header, the post on sex life. I burst out laughing which inevitably attracted attention. They looked at me, looked down to the material that I was reading and looked back up to me with a slightly different kind of look; which in turn made me laughed harder as I blatantly pointed at their face... (nah kidding xD)
But yea, check that post out.

Then, as I was borrowing some books, some familiar (and irritating) voice was shouting "HEY HEY YOU. YOU THERE!!!". I turned and lo and behold its Amir (from 1e3). Yea... had a few stares and a warning by a librarian. And those peeps from my table just now, they looked at me, looked down to the boy that I was greeted by and looked back up to me with a slightly different kind of look.
Never thought somebody would actually obtain another's attention like that in the library; this is what you get if you don't remember my name. Apparently he was there for some volunteering.

Attended a wedding later that evening. Everything else's a bore.
Oh, and this song is just too awesome. Classical.

A Preview of my Bedroom

2009-11-27T00:03:00.021+08:00

It's pretty frustrating when you thought so much for a post and apparently when you are right in front of the computer wanting to post on what you've thought about, only 20% of them are retained. Anyways, this is the first time I'll be posting pictures of my room, and probably the last, so yea, an exclusive post =]

So this was it before:

These are all the left over crap from EOY. This is the reason why I can't study or should ever be studying at home. Stacks of worksheets, files, textbooks and erm... an umbrella? More rubbish on the right; mostly my bro's stuff.
Here's a clearer view of the wreckage. hah, Shahid, your book and file are probably under those rubble. Some of the stuff has not been moved since Primary school lol ^.^''

The green is becoming so dull =[ Yea... as impossible as it looks, I tried. This is how my room turn out after 5 hours.
"=O What happened to all those stickers and the blue house on your cupboard?" Yea man, took loads of rubbish out, especially those stickers from primary school (wonder why I put them up in the first place...)

A miracle eh? After all those scrubbing and vacuum-ing, the table top looks greener now =]

Another angle. Oh, couldn't do anything with those CDs; they're not mine.

Hmm... Why the 2 physics textbook?

Shahid, you should be smiling now (for a few reasons)

Finally, my com...

And some glow in the dark stickers I pasted like 10 years ago? Didn't have the heart to take them out man. haha

Wow damn, this post is damn long. And while we're in the topic of my bedroom, just wanna mention that I have been having some really erratic sleeping patterns lately. I'm sleepy most of the time but I can only sleep at 2 am onwards. Then I'll be damn energetic right after waking up before drifting to some reverie again. Hmm at least its not FFI or sth but I really need to see a psychiatrist. What should I say? "Sir, I tried hacking my brain with lots of stuff before finally realising its messing it up."

Tried a couple of weird psychology stuff like lucid dreaming, speed reading, self-hypnotism and those IQ/Mensa books.

Found some interesting stuff on blogs that I've read recently. Lol firstly this which I obtained from Joseph's blog - mostly rethorical
Why girls take so much time in the toilet. From Zhi Yan's blog
And erm wow there's somebody with the name Czarina. Thought it was one of those cool words only used in Scrabble.
Glow-in-the-dark SUNglasses? What the hell man... Lol
Oh and unknowing twins married. How strange is that.

Anyways, Selamat Hari Raya Haji (I'll leave the smiling to the goat)

It looks like its high or sth. But I really like its hairstyle ^^

Common sense is not so common.

2009-11-25T20:37:00.004+08:00

There have been a lot of topics pertaining to Singapore's bilingualism in the forum section of StraitStimes on the days following up to the release of the PSLE results. The topics posted are mainly by citizens who are trying to voice out their opinions on how the Mother Tongue language can mess up their child's life and the loopholes behind the policy. Isn't unfair that there are people ahead of you just because of their exemption? Anyway, here's an interesting one.

Price of bilingualism

I REFER to the current discussion arising from the report on Minister Mentor Lee Kuan Yew's acknowledgement that his policy on bilingualism started on the wrong footing ('MM Lee wants learning of Chinese to be fun' last Wednesday).

I am comforted that finally someone at this high level of government has come to see my point of view, which I have voiced for a long time.

I wrote to The Straits Times about 20 years ago when my son was nine, appealing for official help and describing his traumatic experience: he suffered in school because of his poor Chinese, he was picked on by the Chinese teacher, he lost his self-esteem and hated school.

I remember the criticism heaped on me from several quarters, although a few columnists offered a more sympathetic and even-handed view of my son's dilemma.

My son believed there was no way out of his misery and that was when I told him we could emigrate.

We left Singapore and settled in another country, Australia. Here, my son was immediately spotted by his teacher to be talented. His English was flawless. He could speed-read with 100 per cent comprehension and retention.

Today, his skill enables him to do well at work, as he can read a complex 100-page document in a few minutes, with no need to scroll back to refresh his memory.

My second son also did well in Australia. When his IQ was tested, he scored 176. At age nine, when he was in Year 5 (Primary 4), a government-funded test revealed that his mental capacity was that of Year 9 (Secondary 2), so he was fast-tracked in a talent school.

By contrast, in 1989, when I asked Singapore's Ministry of Education to enrol my second son when he was five, I was turned down because the system did not allow exceptions.

I have pondered in the past few days whether we would have stayed in Singapore if the bilingual policy in the early 1990s had been less harsh. My answer would probably be yes.

There was no compelling reason for us to leave other than my older son's predicament. But there is no point in rewinding the clock. The new country has nurtured my sons well, and I am grateful.

I am pleased MM Lee has signalled that the bilingual policy will be toned down to suit different abilities.

Pauline Tan (Mrs)
Brisbane, Australia

P.S.Having an IQ of 176 is really something to envy ><

Speed reading

2009-11-24T22:46:00.003+08:00

Pretty interesting course on Speed reading; something my school never thought of having (Instead other useless courses which thought us Kapap)

2009-11-23T10:46:00.002+08:00

I really can't get enough from this guy. He made these songs clearer even after taking out its lyrics... There're so many things I want to learn yet there are more I have to accomplish first. Singapore really has to make adjustments on its education system.

2009-11-19T21:02:00.002+08:00

A year left and I'm out of this school; something I've been looking forward to since I was allocated in it. I sure learnt a lesson.

Anyway, end of year results was as expected. Dropped in level ranking from 3rd to 4th and finally to 8th position throughout the year. =[ I really need a way to keep myself discipline throughout the year. Well till then, the best is the library. (which has substantial foods)

Sick..

2009-08-15T19:55:00.001+08:00

Damn it man... fell ill a couple of days before exam. This is going to suck.

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Sony Ericsson W980

2009-08-11T23:34:00.001+08:00

Finally, got a new phone after 3 months. So now I'm able accept calls and reply messages... though it doesn't have a mirror (inside joke). Love the features but still not accustomed to getting around the phone and messaging. The design didn't attract me initially but it isn't that bad; the keypads are a bit awkward though. so yea...

Oh came back from terrenganu (sp?). Didn't manage to take any pictures though. And if I manage to get a couple of photographs from my mother's cousin's daughter, I might consider posting a blog on it.

National Day

2009-08-07T14:07:00.001+08:00

It's really patriotic to be in another country on national day....isn't ittttt?(inside joke)
Especially when the country was the one we parted from to gain independence. Well, all along I just need a holiday away from Singapore and here I have one. But it's just before the exams. So this might either make or break me. Should be exciting though =]

Be back by monday then.

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hot shots

2009-08-06T22:19:00.001+08:00

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Untitled

2009-08-05T18:13:00.001+08:00

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Cool song =]

2009-07-27T20:50:00.001+08:00

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The word Game

2009-07-26T22:39:00.001+08:00

First of all, congrats to Timothy, Tse Pin, Joey, Jonathan and Jeffrey for clinching the second position in the nationals. Was so close... but nvm. Well, looking forward to the future competitions. Nvr knew AEM could help timo in scrabble... Lol, dipoles.

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pusillanimous - Meaning from Word of the Day

2009-07-25T21:14:00.001+08:00

pusillanimous (2009-07-24)
Part of Speech: adjectivePronunciation: [pyu-si-'læ-nê-mês]
Definition: Faint-hearted, lacking courage.

Usage: Don't be too pusillanimous to use today's word; it isn't all that long and stands in nicely for "faint-hearted" when you need a weaker term than "cowardly." "This roller-coaster is not for the pusillanimous," is less offensive with "pusillanimous" than with "cowardly" in the same position. It helps you avoid "fear" too: "Only his pusillanimity with women has prevented Carlton from asking Meredith to marry him."

Suggested Usage: The meaning of this adjective is weaker and less offensive than "cowardly." The noun is pusillanimity [pyu-sê-læ-'ni-mê-tee].

Etymology: Late Latin pusillanimis from Latin pusillus "weak," diminutive of pullus "young (animal)" + animus "soul, spirit, mind." "Pullus" is related to English "pullet" and comes from pusus "boy," related to puer "boy" which gave English "puerile." Latin "animus" is related to Greek anemos "wind" whence English anemone. "Pullus" comes from the underlying root pau- "small, few" which turns up in English "few" and "foal."

pusillanimous - Meaning from Word of the Day

Testing again haha

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Just testing

2009-07-25T21:03:00.001+08:00

Yea just testing a feature from flock. Here's the website btw. http://www.flock.com./

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Flock Rocks

2009-07-25T20:55:00.000+08:00

Damn flock seriously rocks. May look like firefox at first but after getting used to all its new features, you'll see the difference.

Handwriting?

2009-07-19T22:32:00.002+08:00

Muhammad is moderately outgoing. His emotions are stirred by sympathy and heart rendering stories. In fact, he can be kind, friendly, affectionate and considerate of others. He has the ability to put himself into the other person's shoes.

Muhammad will be somewhat moody, with highs and lows. Sometimes he will be happy, the next day he might be sad. He has the unique ability to get along equally well with what psychology calls introverts and extroverts. This is because he is in between. Psychology calls Muhammad an ambivert. He understands the needs of both types. Although they get along, he will not tolerate anyone that is too "far out." He doesn't sway too far one way or the other.

When convincing him to buy a product or an idea, a heart rendering story could mean a great deal to him. He puts himself in the same situation as the person in the story, yet he will not buy anything that seems overly impractical or illogical. Muhammad is an expressive person. He outwardly shows his emotions. He may even show traces of tears when hearing a sad story.

Muhammad tends to write a bit smaller than the average person. When a person's letters are small and tiny, this indicates an ability to focus and concentrate. This character trait is a huge asset in careers like math, science, race car driving, and flying planes. However, if Muhammad writes tiny all of the time, he will also display characteristics of someone who is socially introverted. Muhammad will often sit on the sideline and watch others get the attention at parties. He might be willing to open up and be warm, but only in small groups or a select group of people.(<<<>

Muhammad will demand respect and will expect others to treat him with honor and dignity. Muhammad believes in his ideas and will expect other people to also respect them. He has a lot of pride.

Muhammad is secretive. He has secrets which he does not wish to share with others. He intentionally conceals things about himself. He has a private side that he intends to keep that way, especially concerning certain events in his past.(bloody hell... so accurate? )

In reference to Muhammad's mental abilities, he has a very investigating and creating mind. He investigates projects rapidly because he is curious about many things. He gets involved in many projects that seem good at the beginning, but he soon must slow down and look at all the angles. He probably gets too many things going at once. When Muhammad slows down, then he becomes more creative than before. Since it takes time to be creative, he must slow down to do it. He then decides what projects he has time to finish. Thus he finishes at a slower pace than when he started the project.

He has the best of two kinds of minds. One is the quick investigating mind. The other is the creative mind. His mind thinks quick and rapidly in the investigative mode. He can learn quicker, investigate more, and think faster. Muhammad can then switch into his low gear. When he is in the slower mode, he can be creative, remember longer and stack facts in a logical manner. He is more logical this way and can climb mental mountains with a much better grip.

Muhammad is a practical person whose goals are planned, practical, and down to earth.(err...) This is typical of people with normal healthy self-esteem. He needs to visualize the end of a project before he starts. he finds joy in anticipation and planning. Notice that I said he plans everything he is going to do, that doesn't necessarily mean things go as planned. Muhammad basically feels good about himself. He has a positive self-esteem which contributes to his success. He feels he has the ability to achieve anything he sets his mind to. However, he sets his goals using practicality-- not too "out of reach". He has enough self-confidence to leave a bad situation, yet, he will not take great risks, as they relate to his goals. A good esteem is one key to a happy life. Although there is room for improvement in the confidence category, his self-perception is better than average.

One way Muhammad punishes himself is self directed sarcasm. He is a very sarcastic person. Often this sarcasm and "sharp tongued" behavior is directed at himself.

Muhammad exaggerates about everything that has a physical nature. Although he may not intend to deceive or mislead, he blows things way out of proportion because that is the way he views them. He will be a good story teller. This exaggeration relates to all areas of his material world. Muhammad allows many people into his life because he is accepting and trusting. He is sometimes called gullible by his friends. That only really means that he trusts too many people. Muhammad has a vivid imagination.

For a graphologist, the spacing on the page reflects the writer's attitude toward their own world and relationship to things in his or her own space. If the inputted data was correct Muhammad has left lots of white space on the right side of the paper. Muhammad fills up the rest of the page in a normal fashion. If this is true, then Muhammad has an unhealthy relationship to the past and has a fear of moving forward. The right side of the page represents the future and Muhammad seems unwilling to face the fear of getting started living now and planning for the future. Muhammad seems to be clinging to past events and spending lots of time thinking about what happened. It would be best to leave the past behind and move on. Stop crowding that left margin. (Its judging our life by the way you write? In addition, its taking the way we write literally. You can judge the char by the way u write but not how life has gone for you. So left side means past and right side means future? wtf..)

RIP MJ

2009-07-09T21:42:00.004+08:00

Yea, I know, this tribute to him is quite outdated. Anyways, just to let you guys know, I didn't lose my password again =] Instead, every time I have something to blog about, 3/4 of the point I want to present would be forgotten or sth. So instead of giving part of what I want to say and will cause you guys to end up misunderstanding, I procrastinate till i finally remembers.
But when I do, the point aren't recorded and I'll end up forgetting again =\ -shrugs-

Here's a video on him I wanna share.

The media really sucks. Here's another video:

Haha yea, there's MJ ghost now... All this shit can be scientifically explained and there're people walking around the mansion to make that shadow and the figure moving in and out of the background.

So thus the last video:

He's a legend who had been tainted by media. His children are next.
And oh yea, changed a my player and it won't autoplay but do listen to some of the songs =D
Okay apparently, I've forgotten an important point that was supposedly to end my post. Since that's the case, I'll just end it with another video =]

(shahid, i want to read ur comments on this >>>)

2009-06-17T22:39:00.003+08:00

Here's a cool video to watch. Seriously... watch it rather than reading the rest of my post. A bit draggy at the start but it soon gets interesting. Something the whole world should watch

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=jqxENMKaeCU

Anyways, life has been sucky. I'm now sure I have some mental illness. Probably the result of withdrawal from my phone's music (somehow listening from computer is not the same), the 3 days camp and stress from lots of unnecessary stuff.

I'm like suppose to write a piece of compo for a competition which I shouldn't be in initially. I just can't come up with a good plot. And when I'm stuck, I'll surf the net for inspiration thus wasting like hours. So like, -writes a sentence-, -stucks-, -facebooks-, -youtubes-, -msns-, -toilets-, -sleeps-, -wonders why "abbreviated" is a long word-, -backs-, -stucks-. IT CYCLES. Its freaking depressing ok... I mean just for a freaking 700-1200 word compo. And when I sleep, I'll have the same nightmare since 6th of June. Wtf man.

Malay O's coming and now i'm starting to read malay books in like 3 years? There're still homeworks to be done. I'm sleepy all the time. Can't study at home cuz the environment sucks. And all i need is a holiday away from Singapore which I can't have. I'm lacking of inspiration and motivation and the fact that my mind is currently in haywire doesn't help.

Maybe what can really help me is somebody to actually read my mind, diagnose and guide me. I mean instead of having to think for everything myself, for once, somebody to guide specifically me. Maybe a tuition will be good. Instead of finding stuff to learn, they'll give u the stuff while u'll just learn. Hmm maybe that's how a tuition is like...

Ever wonder why "abbreviated" is such a long word?

2009-06-03T14:25:00.003+08:00

Some of us went to have lunch at the food court and there was this funny incident.
Yun ting wanted to take a pic of daniel but he couldn't smile

But why?

"cos I cant smile looking at your face, DJ awyong."

"Urghhh, alright. One more!"

*covers face with hand*

yea LOL

Full credit to Yun ting

K anyway, while was filing most of my worksheets yesterday, in my noise polluted, hurricane blown sanctuary decorated with a non-operative air-condition, I recalled Joseph proposing an idea to invent an auto-filer. He said that it would be revolutionary. So I thought about for awhile.

I then thought of a simple concept on which the machine will work. I was thinking of the OTA sheet. Since we file according to our date, we can have boxes on the top of every worksheet where we can shade the date. So all the machine has to do is to rearrange the papers chronically. The arranging part shouldn't be difficult. Freecell , a game my mother plays not me, works the same way so computer will do that. Then all that is left is to hole punch it. Not so revolutionary is it?

Oh yea, just wanna ask you guys what movie do you guys recommend watching. The ones that were in cinema. Some have recommended series instead but some might be so addictive that it'll screw up my schedule.

And I think I'm losing my mind. No seriously this time.... scary.

Okay, shall end this post with some yo mamma jokes I found

Yo momma so poor...

That your family ate Cornflakes with a fork to save milk.

Burglars break into yo momma's home and leave money.

She can't even afford to go to the free clinic.

2009-06-01T17:36:00.002+08:00

May be lame for some of you haha...

Monster vs Alien got 5/5 rating. Yea... wth.

Readers are plentiful; thinkers are rare.

2009-05-30T19:28:00.003+08:00

Okay I got to admit the interclass compt was boring. Didn't expect it to be lol...

So anyways, we got our results back and didn't do as well as expected. Or as expected, didn't do as well as expected. But it's not quite bad if i were to consider what I've accomplished for the semester; especially with the hectic schedule. okay fine..... its bad =[

Well now that the hols are here, I've to reorganise and restrategise. Let's see what I have for the hol:

YMC/RGS project (CIP hours)
YMC camp
Some scrabble stuff
CCA (thank god we slack)
MT O levels
Probably IPhyO
and other stuff which most of us has in common like project, hw and AEM

Haha i bet that's quite little compared to what some of you have. Will be using the hols to improve my English, Humans and MT... Esp MT. Has not been exercising so that too. So anybody who either needs company in studying or wants to play some sports like badminton or basketball, invite me =D

Went to YMC today. There was "congress" in McDonalds. Was suppose to go to scrabble but time passed to fast... so continued to YMC. Quite interesting. It was about choosing the right career.

Has been reading those old books I've read before. Reminds me how much my life is screwed. Well... all I can do now is to lessen the damage.

In mathematics you don't understand things. You just get used to them.

2009-05-26T20:12:00.004+08:00

Finally remembered my password. That hit by Alif still stings... -rubs head-

Anyway, just like to give a thanks to pearlin for giving my that cake ages ago =] sorry for the lag^.^''

Okay erm I'll like to touch a bit on the recent maths trail a few of us participated. Well it was awesome firstly because none of the questions were textbook based. So Tse Pin and I were interested to see how well would the girls do when faced with foreign, pure logical question. General knowledge in maths was also needed in some questions like trigo or the 3-diagram thing.

As most of you know we despise those who learn by rote*. I mean we're very obnoxious about it. So yea, the trail was a good gauge in general. Anyways, as expected, they crumbled. But what's surprising (should i be?) is that the top 10 were 70% Chung Cheng High students. That meant all the teams sent from that school got to the top 10 position. So its sad to see that there're other neighbourhood schools that are better at genuine maths. Luck plays a part in winning too but luck can't be so bias to allow all 7 teams from Chung Cheng into the top 10 but only 1/5 from Yishun Town.

See, some how, our school doesn't encourage a wider range of knowledge in maths (probably science too) in its educational system. The tests and most exam questions given just tests you how well you will do in O levels without actually testing if excessive practice on the area gets you the marks or genuine talent in the area. But then again, carelessness arises through lack of practice. It should atleast balance both out.

Example?

I tried introducing a new concept in maths to some of my classmates so that they will have a better understanding on how the current topics works. Even though they'll learn that new concept next semester, they refuse as what they already have is sufficient to score high in maths. Whereas there are others (our sec 1s) who approached our teachers and asked her to teach them differentiation which will only be taught in sec 4. Its good that our school are attracting these type of students. Thus the proper studying environment here is quite discouraging. Mind maps are no longer mind maps. The lesser it is of a mind map and the more details inserted, the higher the marks... Wtf..

Then there are people like Alif who could solve a question given by one of the girl's team in under 10 mins but isn't one of the top in maths since he doesn't do excessive math practice. On the other hand, the girl's team couldn't solve the question but is in the top few position in maths.

Okay last point. Lets use chess as an example. Player A and Player B played chess for the first time. Player A wins Player B since Player A can construct strategies and just has good logic. Then Player B lucubrate on chess openings and hires coach to coach him while Player B plays chess for fun. Player A and Player B plays for the second time. Both player plays a perfect game till a point where Player A makes a careless. So Player B won as he plays 24/7 thus memorize every possibility when certain lines in the game arises and assisted in thinking by the coach and in introduced new tips and tricks. So is that fair? But that's just life isn't it?
Conclusion: Use any means necessary method to succeed?

Oh yea, these are some of the signatures I made for some members in an online forum community xD

Erm yea, the last is my first 8]

Awesome Day

2009-05-15T20:44:00.003+08:00

Haha, firstly I really wanna show my appreciation to those who made this. So thx so much to Zhi yan, Yun ting, Kim peng, Wei xuan, Kai shan, Sin yee and Hui min. Yea, its true that this is my first time receiving such present =D Really thoughtful to put it in a form of a burger 8P Really treasure the friendship and company.

Had a great day with Alif Timo, Tse pin, Zhi yan, Yun ting, Kim peng, Wei xuan, Kai shan and Hui min. Went to Ice world in Kallang to skate. My first time skating on ice but the basic skills are similar to in-line skating. Love it when you just glide through the air. Sadly its not before long till you'll have to turn around. Played some childhood games like catching and ice water. Haha, much more fun on ice than on solid ground. Had 2 exceptionally hard falls.

Went around Kallang leisure or sth after skating to find halal foods. After a grueling hour or so, Alif and thought we were a burden so we left for Gee lam's party. I know its hard being a muslim or acting as one. Anyways, it turned out to be great going there. Even though there were little people, it means that more food for each of us! Hehe, and we didn't have lunch. Played some gaming consoles, piano, board games and computer. Seriously not bad. Her house is quite cool too.

We should try talking or spending time with others in our class more. I mean some of them may seem weird but they might be whom you see them. For example Tse Pin; you guys thought we was shy and boring. Turned out that he's not. Furthermore, he changed because has more friends to support him. So why not give others a chance? Although there are some who are persistent, there are still others who are willing to form bonds. And as a bigger group, it should be our job to go to them.

Lol anything ah, just my opinion. Thx again for the present =]

MYE

2009-05-14T23:14:00.003+08:00

Thx a lot for the birthday wished guys =] Really appreciate it

The exams are over so here's a quick review on it.

A Maths - The paper was awesome but I screwed it up. It has been making me angst for the whole day probably because I missed a damn good opportunity to actually gauge myself at my best. Studied math at a higher level at the start of the year hoping the test will be of this standard but instead it was those textbook question. So I then thought it wasn't worth the effort. Told miss Tan to make the tests more challenging so that it can show a gap between skills and utter studious. Under-estimated the exam and was taken aback. Wasted 45 mins on the last qn to find out that the mistake I had been making was copying down the wrong digit. Guess what? I found that out only 5 mins b4 the paper ends. So had to redo the whole 10 marks question in under 5 mins. Awesome...

E Math - Manageable. Was happy with the standard of the paper. Probably a 5-10 marks of careless

Physics - Pretty ok. What was saddening is I made a careless calculation in the question for which I have been explaining to like half of the class for the past week. Atleast 4 marks gone in mcq for unknown reasons.

English - Paper 1 was okay. Paper 2 was kinda tough. damn...

Higher MT- no comments

Chem - pretty ok. Careless mistakes and genuine mistakes here and there after some discussions.

Bio - pretty ok.

Geo and SS - The marks should improve - I mean hopefull

So that's it i guess... *sigh*

Angels and Devils

2009-05-12T21:37:00.003+08:00

Just wanna post one of my all time favourite song Angels and Devils by Dishwalla. One of those songs which reminds you of all your goals in life...

This is the last time
that I'm ever gonna come here tonight
this is the last time - I will fall
into a place that fails us all - inside

I can see the pain in You
I can see the love in You
but fighting all the demons will take time
it will take time

the angels they burn inside for us
are we ever
are we ever gonna learn to fly
the devils they burn inside of us
are we ever gonna come back down
come around
I'm always gonna worry about the things that could make us cold

this is the last time
that I'm ever gonna give in tonight
are there angels or devils crawling here?
I just want to know what blurs and what is clear - to see

still I can see the pain in You
and I can see the love in You
and fighting all the demons will take time
it will take time

the angels they burn inside for us
are we ever
are we ever gonna learn to fly
the devils they burn inside of us
are we ever gonna come back down - come around
I'm always gonna worry about the things that could break us

if I was to give in - give it up
- and then
take a breath - make it deep
cause it might be the last one you get
be the last one
that could make us cold
you know that they could make us cold
I'm always gonna worry about the things that could make us cold

Family lunch (without the father)

2009-05-11T20:46:00.004+08:00

Haha the card the class gave to Shahid. Quite thoughtful...

Anyway, went to delifrance today for a family lunch in celebrating my bro's working anniversary (he started working last year today), mother's day and my upcoming birthday. My father was working. Swensens was over saturated so we decided to go to Deli instead since they offer similar food; except for the ice cream. First thing you'll notice the complex names in french. So like when we were ordering, we had trouble giving our orders. Was pretty funny when we were the one correcting the waiter being afraid that he noted down some other dishes. I got this huge hamburger which was probably bigger than Theaodore's palm (yeheheeaa). Wanted to take a photo of it but it was gone before I could take my phone out.
I was suddenly full. Didn't know what happened...
Had pizza then. Thx bro! 8D Appreciate it =]

Going to visit my uncle this Wednesday. Wasn't planning on doing that on my birthday but its worth it. Hmm, maybe its a surprise my family has been putting up.... My god... I'm becoming more self-centered.

Global Warming

2009-05-10T23:26:00.002+08:00

A great video on saving our environment. Oh, my library book is not found and is deemed lost but the NLB gave me a chance and I won't be fine =D. So damn effing awesome...

Secondly, went to Mendaki (most of you guys will know it as YMC) yesterday. Finally got to meet the rest of the team. Its an interesting issue we were talking about. The gap between different streams. The main issue is the fact that we don't mix around due to inferriority complex or not to be influence by the attitudes. I blogged about a similiar topic to it the last time. The scale of the project is quite big, like that of the Ramadhan Rock I went to last august, and the fact that its being done by a group of sec 3s is cool.
Was lost in the midst of the administrative discussion because I'm not exposed to these stuff in school *shrugs*. Well, looking forward in actually progressing deeper into the project and knowing the team better.

Oh haha, since they do not know me, probably they think that i'm truly a retard when I make those jokes that makes me seems that I'm dumb. Haha what the heck.

Went to the library with Shahid today after like so freaking long and met Zik after atleast a year. Damn it... memories...
His class is damn fun. Cool stuff they gave to him for his birthday. Maybe I'll upload the pictures tomorrow.

2009-05-08T21:34:00.001+08:00

>Hilarious video by Comedy.com

Well the week was shit. Some stupid careless in exams, lost a workbook and my uncle's met with an accident. One of the kindest man I've ever met living a shit life because he is married to an ungrateful bitch and has an asshole for a daughter who have not visit him in ICU even as he's dying. I feel for him man... I'm not sure what he's living for now. This just shows life is just a chain of random event and if there's any divine intervention, his life can't be this bad.

Bio and chem was fun. Geo and math was okay... *sigh* hope everything goes well. Oh yea... SS sucked. Hmm what else... Oh, mas selamat was arrested. Awesome...

Giraffe in Quicksand

2009-05-03T23:51:00.003+08:00

Haha... just random video to share. Damn it, the weekend's over.

Well nothing much has happened. Spent a day with some ymc members on May Day. Wanted to blog about it but schedule's tight. Been mugging so was kinda boring. hmm oh yea... Checked my library account and found out that there's a book i have not returned. I thought I had but according to the archives, it wasn't cleared. Maybe its in my laptop bag but can't find it atm. Damn... stupid unnecessary stress. Especially in the midst of exams. Oh cmon god, give me a break. Play this game after the exams. What would you feel like if I were to interrupt you while you were making this world of yours in those 7 days? Wouldn't be nice would it?

Happy Birthday Shahid!

2009-04-29T23:30:00.000+08:00

Happy Birthday Shahid! I'm like posting this 15 minutes before his birthday passes so i better make this quick. Haha, great friends for like nine years which is more than half of my life!! Kinda cool eh? Sad that we're not studying together... shit happens.

Well since we share a lot of interest in physics, gonna talk much about it for the rest of the post 8D
Probably shouldn't have said that...

Anyways, recently i watched an awesome Jap movie online on maths and physics. The storyline is damn interesting and although there's tinge of math and physics, the main theme is homicide. Was introduced by Tse Pin. Seriously a must watch. so do justice to yourself an watch it ;_;

http://www.veoh.com/group/sx08#watch%3Dv18083582TJJAyGQr

Then there's this other one on a beautiful mind. Some of you might have watched it before but for those who have not... damn inspiring. To watch it, just click the Arrow. It will not be blocked.

*sigh* both movies reminds me the fact that I'm wasting a whole lot of time in this school with these people. All the boring textbook shizz which concept of learning is memorising...

Well Miss Pou said that to actually score in Bio, you have to memorise the textbook answers. Well not the fact that memorising is boring but the fact that everybody can memorise doesn't make one smarter than the other. Just tells that one puts in more effort to cram stuff in their brain with or without understanding it. But still, I shouldn't rant that much as the way she set it up needs you to think before actually using the memorized facts to put down the answer.

Oh, while on the context of school, Yishun Town actually earned autonomy. If I were to perceive the school's standard from our Juniors, probably it'll be much better. The fact that they're actually interested in finding answers to what puzzles them even though it has nothing to do with their studies. Glad that the school's improving.

That's about it i guess. And there was english exam today and I can say goodbye to a B3. Damn it...

Happy birthday mom?

2009-04-03T21:52:00.001+08:00

Random thing to create a blog at this moment in time but yea, my mom's birthday was 2 days ago. A simple blog made to practice my writing and another activity to do for recreation since only reading other's blog is getting kinda boring... So yea. Nothing much for now so this is it.

yup...